Regret

I cant stand the thought of losing you
so long before your time
and if i said i needed you
do you think you'd change your mind
I'm sorry but I'm not ready
I'm not sure how ill carry on
I imagine ill be torn and broken
reassure me that I'm strong
tell me there's an after life
and that we'll meet again
so we don't have too worry
and we can rest our heads
all i want is to clear my conscience
but we know how things tend to get
there's nothing more than i feel i need now
I don't wanna know regret
all I want is to say I'm sorry
so you know I recognize I'm wrong
all i want is was to say I love you
why'd it have to take this long
as your eyes grow dim and voice turns feint
its given all I have to show restraint
and even on this ground I hold
I barely stand, exposed and cold
hoping that I'm never told
your bodies parted from its soul
I'd rather have them take me first
than lose the one that brought me home
I'm not even sure what i should expect
its just I've never been acquainted with death
whats worse is i can hear the pace of his feet
matching the rhythm of your heart as it beats
to see you there still and helpless
yet have the nerve to be so selfish
its added strain that fuels your burden
I apologize, I'm so uncertain
what i wouldn't give to be assertive
to speak the truth and ask the purpose
in doing if his plans so perfect
when in my shoes its viewed as worthless
all I want is to clear my conscience
but we know how things tend to get
there's nothing more than i feel i need now
I don't wanna know regret
all I want is to say I'm sorry (say I'm sorry)
so you know I recognize I'm wrong
all I want is was to say i love you (say i love you)
why'd it have to take this long