Denial

Here I am again in this misery
Falling for everything that you've sold me
I've been losing hope in my sanity
Falling for all your tricks that control me
And I'm still trying
To fight the fire of the hate inside me
And I'm still buying
All the old lies you left inside me
So take your shots but I won't bow down now
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial
Now I'm holding onto what's left of me
What you know is enough to destroy me
I can't take a stand with you next to me
What you want it can only hurt me
And I'm still finding
That I'm the one lost trapped in the lining
And I'm still hiding
Here in the darkness where you left me dying
So take your shots but I won't bow down now
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial
Back end of life, I'm full of strife
In a drone on my own, I intend to mend
As I contend within this sin I'm in
I'm in control of my soul and it's filled with lust
If I could just break free
My mind holds my tongue
Not allowed to talk aloud
I'm proud and I shut my brain down on command
It's time for myself to admit to my wrongs
I'm living as a man, But I've given my sin
I'm done looking and lustin
I've gotta find a peer, To challenge me
To flee and be free
With everything that I now have left in me
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial
I'm in the fight of my life
I'm not fine
I'm in denial