the fog so thick before me It's the dawning of a dark day I'm alone in this transforming Inside I whisper but I don't have a say Embedded in this flesh the knife it twists But I don't feel the pain The smile of suffering across my face I could escape but I remain My emotions six feet under as I'm existing just outside my skin From where I cannot fight or struggle My grip it loosens and my hope grows thin I slip beneath the surface I cannot breath and I cannot scream A shard of hope that still pervades me Tells me this suffering is but a dream I am awake and I'm alive My reality I cannot deny Slowly accepting the pain within For it to end it must begin I descend into darkness I long for the comfort of love's embrace Long ago I knew it in a dream But then it vanished without a trace And now I'm left to shiver Here in the cold I'm all alone As I cling onto the last shred of the life I used to call my own I descend into darkness